Starting to realize that being too reliance is the whole of this argument. But is it wrong to be too reliance on someone? Or is it caring too much that causes this.
It starts to hit me that the honeymoon period is over. Yeah it's a long honeymoon period for us. It's been a year plus now.
Maybe its time to get out of my comfort zone and learn to be independent.

I have always been very reliance on the people around me. I ask them for important decisions that i should make and even probably just ask them out to eat with me when I'm alone during lunch break. I'm not the type who can eat alone outside. If I'm alone,  i would rather not eat or just get a snack or bread and eat on the go.

Throughout this one year plus being together, he has always been there with me almost every weekends. If we weren't together for one of the weekend I would start to feel uneasy or lonely. It just feels like something is missing.

Thus lately when he started to work in retail, I had the sudden anxiety like I will lose him. First few days of his work was crazy and i went crazy too.Anticipating him to text but yet each text from him was a mere "have you eaten". Wanted to talk more yet, Sorry times up, need to get back to work. The cycle repeats for the next few days, with having lesser and lesser conversation each day.

From a texting almost every few minutes to texting only every few hours, would this make you have your panic attack mode on? Or maybe you would say i'm too clingy? What's more this whole retail job gonna last till August when his holiday ends? Thinking about it makes me fear the weekends that are coming to me. I hate arguing with him over the problem almost every other night. Who loves to argue anyway?

Probably I should really start to be independent and stop being so reliance on him. I hate this. But I guess I do not have a choice...