Starting to realize that being too reliance is the whole of this argument. But is it wrong to be too reliance on someone? Or is it caring too much that causes this.
It starts to hit me that the honeymoon period is over. Yeah it's a long honeymoon period for us. It's been a year plus now.
Maybe its time to get out of my comfort zone and learn to be independent.

I have always been very reliance on the people around me. I ask them for important decisions that i should make and even probably just ask them out to eat with me when I'm alone during lunch break. I'm not the type who can eat alone outside. If I'm alone,  i would rather not eat or just get a snack or bread and eat on the go.

Throughout this one year plus being together, he has always been there with me almost every weekends. If we weren't together for one of the weekend I would start to feel uneasy or lonely. It just feels like something is missing.

Thus lately when he started to work in retail, I had the sudden anxiety like I will lose him. First few days of his work was crazy and i went crazy too.Anticipating him to text but yet each text from him was a mere "have you eaten". Wanted to talk more yet, Sorry times up, need to get back to work. The cycle repeats for the next few days, with having lesser and lesser conversation each day.

From a texting almost every few minutes to texting only every few hours, would this make you have your panic attack mode on? Or maybe you would say i'm too clingy? What's more this whole retail job gonna last till August when his holiday ends? Thinking about it makes me fear the weekends that are coming to me. I hate arguing with him over the problem almost every other night. Who loves to argue anyway?

Probably I should really start to be independent and stop being so reliance on him. I hate this. But I guess I do not have a choice...

HELLO DD, I KNOW YOU ARE READING! HAHAHAHAHA

Emo.

Feasting!

Omg, been having super heavy dinner lately! I'm seriously growing horizontal in no time!

Wednesday 27/07
Finally met up with Sarah, Lavoy and Jeffrey! Though it was supposed to be a gathering before Hakim go army but he had toothache! Oh well, all the best Hakim! :D So we had dinner at Sakae Tepanyaki, Plaza Sing. The foie gras and beef are so yummy-licious!! First time trying foie gras and its heavenlyyyyyyyyyyy!!!! Shopped around Daiso and chill out session at Starbucks. Meet up again soon! :D

Thursday 28/07
Work is as boring as usual and i only did 2 applications for the whole day. The only entertainment we had in office is group chatting, reading newspaper, snacking or play SUDOKU! Man, sudoku is really addictive. hahahahas. Work ended, me amanda yongle junrong pengswee and roger headed to bugis to have steamboat! Dined at tian tian huo guo and the hygiene wise suckssssssssssss! There are 2 small cockroaches on the table! ewwwwww! Food wise is just normal, coz i dont really fancy steamboat. But still, was super bloated after 2.5 hrs sitting there finishing the foods which junrong took but never eat! Tell me, who take chicken wings for steamboat? All of us felt like smacking him.hahahahas

Alright going off to bed now, i hope its another slacking day in the office later! Good night world :)

Start afresh!

WoO~! Its been so long since i last updated :D

Blogskin changed, nice yes or no? You tell me.hahahs :D Add comments at the bottom of this post! No more tagboard, reasons being? I dunno how to add.hahahahaahas! I'm using the skin from blogger, thats why its kinda different from the past ones.

Anyway, alittle updates of my life for now.

Graduated from nyp, wanted to pursue something that interests me a lot, Tourism course. So applied SIT but they rejected me. No backup plan, thus i have to wait for a year before i can apply SIM. What was i thinking that time, when i dun think of a backup plan? Somehow, my mum psycho me to change the course i wanted. So for now i'm considering taking business course from SIM, what to major in is something thats making my head big.

Working for the time being to save up for uni fees. But it seems like i cant really save up with the pathetic salary and tons of expenses to pay for. NICE. I think i really need to find another better job. Nonetheless, the colleagues that i have are making my working life more interesting and i dun really dread about going to work every morning. Except that there are days i'm just plain tired to wake up.lols.

I bet you guys miss my face, so heres a few self obessed photos.LOL. Till then, good byeeee folks! :D

Red nails is LOVED :)

Pig's life!

HAHAHAH the title say it all. I live a pig life for today. Woke up early morning for driving lesson. Came back home around 11am, ate and watched tv. Right after i ate the maggi, i went to shit and off to bed.LOL! Slept from 2 plus till 7.30pm! NICE! Thus i'm so awake now -_-''''
Just drank some milk, hope it helps to let me feels sleepy!

Do you guys know the new firefox allows you to have theme for your erm page? I dunno how to say.hahahs. See the photo below, the old one is plain boring kind, but look at my new skin for it! Its spongebob!! ahhahas Anyway there are a lot of skins to choose from, so go on and beautify ya page!

Life is short

You know it’s been said that we just don’t recognize the significant moments of our lives while they’re happening. We grow complacent with ideas, or things or people and we take them for granted and it’s usually not until that thing is about to be taken away from you that you’ve realized how wrong you’ve been that you realized how much you need it, how much you love it..

Nathan Scott, One Tree Hill